Blank. So goes my mind.
Reaching pen to paper... Strange.
Still it calls to me.
Silence. Brings me here.
Where the paper becomes ears.
Clinging to that straw.
Turn off the high sun,
Which now shines ever brighter,
As he fades further
Music ; Play softer,
Never mention memories,
Melodies fail him
May colours lose depth,
Your purpose to describe fails,
No shade suffices
Keep your distance joy,
You suffocate these four walls,
He is who wakes me
Im as lonely as an autumn branch
I wait on the Sun to direct me
Time repeats
Im as lonely as a soaring eagle
Hungry for a reason to return to Earth
Time repeats
Im as lonely as the waiting fisherman
Depending on the Water for life
Time repeats
Echoes scratch my mind as a reminder
Each recycled day gets harder
I wait on life to gather my broken pieces
My mental scars are deeper than any visible scar you place upon me
Upon the cliffs of ever more
Overlooking the purest shore
Stands a man and his fair lady
All which remains of a fading memory
Each with whispers of regret
"When did you stopped believing in fairies?"
are the solemn words that tumble from his mouth
"When you stopped believing in us"
remains what echoes upon those cliffs of ever more
How common it all seems,
when you put it like that...
Just another smile
Another heartbeat missed
How clever it all seems,
when you consider it all...
Just words
Words resting upon your tongue
How terrible it all seems,
when you smile like that...
Everything must end
Sometimes before it begins
Like a cycle, my voice is ignored
My forever unheard words
Do you not hear my cry?
Do you not know what you do?
Like a cycle, my shattered voice strains
Your silent replies suffocate me
Does my smile deceive you so well?
How can you miss my tears?
Like a cycle, this doesn't end
You always wait until it's too late
Can you see my eyes screaming?
Are they just as empty as my voice?
Like a cycle, I die a little bit more.
Blank. So goes my mind.
Reaching pen to paper... Strange.
Still it calls to me.
Silence. Brings me here.
Where the paper becomes ears.
Clinging to that straw.
Turn off the high sun,
Which now shines ever brighter,
As he fades further
Music ; Play softer,
Never mention memories,
Melodies fail him
May colours lose depth,
Your purpose to describe fails,
No shade suffices
Keep your distance joy,
You suffocate these four walls,
He is who wakes me
Feeling so incomplete
Feeling numb and shaking hard
What must I do to be perfect for you?
Must I allow you to do as you wish?
Never feeling
Never thinking
Banging on the door
Flying objects
All part of who i am
You'll never understand...
Not until you feel it too
Mess all around me
Wet tissues on the floor
Hope the light will go on
Just for a second...Just for a second
You're now downstairs
Enjoy your dinner?
Hoping it's your last
I don't care no more.I have stopped feeling
Let it be as you wish
You are not a stranger just...a monster
Lonely, in an empty room
No-one to see my tears
No-one to feel my fears
Time to grow and bloom
Any point?
Didn't thing so...
Still living though
Care for the ones that make me smile
Hate for the ones that make me cry
No-one ever really knowing why
Look into my empty eyes for a while
Any point?
Didn't think so...
Still living though
I don't want to exist anymore
Had enough of feeling so sore
Every part of me feels so ugly
I feel like I can't continue happily
No one can see my crying
No one can hear me screaming
I want someone to hold me tight
To wrap me up in their arms with all their might
The Scream chilled the air
The jaw filled with blood continuously sinks,
Deeper and deeper, without care
'Your scream makes me want more' is what the predator thinks
The Scream faded, then rose again
She knew what the predator wanted
A world full of Barbie and Ken
The nightmare of this still haunted
The Screaming victim loses hope
Of anyone hearing her prayer
The predator brings out a rope
It's for her to wear
It was the only way to be with her
The one whose scream had a hidden meaning
Ring, Ring, Ring
Three more times the noise echoes in my head
Cushions upside down
Tables filled with mess
Cupboards emptied out
We'll clean it up later…
When the phone is found
Ring, Ring, Ring
The dog is barking now,
The baby is crying now,
The parents are frowning now,
Ring, Ring, Ring
There it is!
Next to the teddy.
Quick the dog has it.
Don't let him get away
The dog is cornered.
I jump at the phone,
Victory!
Ring, Ring, Ring
I answer it with 'hello,'
The reply is 'The person on the other end has cleared.'
I could have gone crazy.
Why did the dog take the phone?
Time to clean up and moan.
Slip, trip, giggle
A laugh and a wiggle
A journey down a path
With a group of mates that need a bath
Slip goes the stud
That steps into the mud
Trip goes the one looking at their clock
Well who told them to hit a rock?
Giggle goes the group
Due to the one that needs a poop
A laugh from me
Hilarious to see
A wiggle from the glam one
Is the path ending? Have we won?
Slip, trip, giggle
A laugh and a wiggle
Could It Have Been Different? by ShyRose, literature
Literature
Could It Have Been Different?
It began with a lot of I Love You Too's
And ended with undesired news...
It all happened so fast
I'm now part of your past
I would do anything to stop u hurting
To give you something to let you keep hoping
I want to take you into my arms
And hide you from life's harms
But do you want to be in the arms that caused it?
I'm holding back and screaming down a endless pit
How could I have been so dumb
My emotions had me under its thumb
You are allowed to show me hate
I don't want to sit here and wait
Do you think that this is meant to be?
Can we explain this all through destiny?
I feel like such a bitch;
A horrible little witch
It
I have decided to take my last breath.
I have decided to explore my soul indepth.
I wonder how much you'll miss me...
You will soon forget me, just wait and see
You showed me the meaning of being happy
You found the beauty in me
Ignore our memories and move on
And find someone special now that I'm gone.
You may hurt for a while,
But you will eventually remember how to smile.
Know that I'll always be watching you.
My dear, I will be beside you whatever you do.
Fickle is your name
and cruel is your nature.
I spun for us a web
of love.
Filaments of fire
and desire.
An intertwining web
of soft entrapment.
Now torn asunder.
My web could not hold
with such fragile grip
A philanderer
Cheat
Deceiver
The web I wove to keep you near
now keeps me
alone and trapped for ever
in a web of my own making.
These are my unstable words
They continue to be rerepeated
They sound familiar but
Their cas-
ca-
ding echo is new
Will they understand the sincere meaning?
That these unstable words are for healing
Each with an unmarked story
With unwavering purity
Coming from the core
Seeping through every pore
These words will continue
Though only understood by few
Favourite genre of music: i'll try out pretty much anything Operating System: my brain! Favourite cartoon character: GOOFY!!! and BETTY BOOP!!! Personal Quote: Everything Happens For A Reason
Favourite Movies
Romeo & Juliet,Moulin Rouge,Sliding Doors,Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind,DISNEY
I've been thinking about dA a lot lately. Partly because I feared that my account had been deleted and that all my stuff was lost forever. But mostly because of where my life is now.
I remember starting my account when I was at 6th form and having so much time to be creative and to build a community around me on here. Now I am married, have a career and own a home. All these things have monopolised the time that used to be dedicated to myself and what I wanted.
I'm trying to pick up find my way back to being creative. I have changed my work schedule to 4 days rather than 5. I've started a novel, bought a tablet to create a YouTube acc
Heheheeh!! So since the post I made in December:
1. I now have a boyfriend. He is my best friend and now my other half. His chilled persona is a great counterbalance to my constant worries. He makes me laugh. He always wants to make me happy. I still freak out loads when I think about being in a relationship. I don't seem to do well with commitment. But I am happy so I am taking each day as it come. My parents have no idea about him as he is not a turkish cypriot and they wouldn't accept him. But whatever, I am enjoying it whilst it lasts.
2. I make jewellery now on a regular basis.
3. My mum is threatening to send me to Cyprus to find a
I had a great night out last night and I'm still trying to recover!!
Looking at the pictures is really helping hehe.
I forgot how much my best friends can heal me. I don't think they even know how much I needed it.
Tomorrow I shall be doing some xmas shopping.
Hope you are all doing well and I hope this weekend is going well for you, too.
:glomp: luv luv